So a birthday in a pandemic… that’s new for me. It’s been a wild few weeks for all of us… to feel like your holding up a place every time you walk in. To see your doctor via FaceTime. Losing a city sized part of our population. But this is life now.
It was all in all an okay day. We had some sun for once!
The other day this lyric concept popped in my head. Naturally I chose not to write it down.
Probably would have been one of the saddest things I’ve written.
I used to think it was normal. To sit up all night thoughts racing… weighted chest. Evidently it isn’t. Last night was rough… I don’t think I slept most of it. I’ve been fortunate though, these nights have lessened as time has progressed. I was inclined to run away from the feeling… I don’t think they’d want me reporting to work at 4am. So I sat with the feelings and thoughts until they were gone.
I’m done explaining. I’m done caring if I make sense to anyone. I’m done worrying if you take this personally.